If the levee breaks
Words from KA: What happens when your protector needs protection? What happens when your support system begins to collapse and now you're forced to be strong? My good friend,Gab, shares her experience of playing the cards that life passed along to her and her father who is left in a vulnerable position. Though the situations may differ, most can agree that life does not always feel fair or favorable. It is up to us how we show up when other people are in need of support.
I saw my Daddie cry for the first time last night. My Daddie, king of the jungle, used my shoulder as a pillow and I had to take on his role for twenty-five minutes, the role I've seen him play for twenty-five years. His burden was carried by me so that he too could breathe and now I'm still trying to catch my breath.
My throat tightened and eyes prepared for a flood stronger than Katrina but I wouldn't dare let that levee break.
I heard my Daddie scream "IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!" last night. That's a phrase I catch myself saying too often and too often it was corrected by him telling me "life's just not fair baby girl but that's no excuse to stop". So does this mean I can stop?
I spoke to my Daddie's mother last night, his kryptonite. The burden of losing her is what we all now feel but she has been released and is at peace. I saw her smile more in those last twenty-five minutes than all of my twenty-five years. I asked if she could pass that smile along to Daddie before she left but she took it with her. I hope she gives it back though because he's not the same without it.