The Broken Red Light
The other day as I traveled to a work event I found myself at an intersection. No really, like most people I was driving and reached a point where I could go no further until I was signaled that it was my turn. Before I realized it, minutes had gone by and it was obvious the light was malfunctioning. The cars who had been afforded a green signal continued to push forward, not thinking twice about those of us who were ultimately stuck. I waited in a line behind cars who were complacent sitting there and probably hopeful that we would get the green light soon. Nope. One car was finally frustrated with this neutral setting and decided to go through the light . It would take two more cars to abandon our village before I decided that I could no longer wait. I did a quick maneuver and was well on my way.
How often in life have you been stuck at your own red light? How often have things been going smoothly and then suddenly you come to an unexpected stop? I would be lying if I said I wasn't experiencing this right now. A few weeks ago I decided to leave my job in search of something more. I've always enjoyed my work but felt that I was at my stopping point and my potential had reached its peak. In my mind I wanted this to be the right choice and with all my frustrstion, I needed it to be. Two weeks later and I'd find myself in a new organization ready to change the world. I arrived and they had laid out the red carpet and the trumpets were playing. Sike. I arrived and immediately felt like I had made the wrong choice to leave my place of comfort and walk into another space that I was over qualified for and unfamiliar with. This was the correct route and I was moving in God's timing or so I thought.
I left my job wanting more but not walking in my calling. We often sell ourselves short of what we are worth because we go after what we think we deserve not what we do deserve. I'm a full believer that God does more than our wildest dreams but we still decide to settle. I mistook an easy opportunity as the opportunity and it simply wasn't for me. Not only did I run the risk of missing my own blessing but I'm now putting someone else's blessing in limbo. I took something that wasn't for me failing to realize what this may mean for someone else's aspirations.
Sometimes red lights don't serve as a stopping point but as a point of reflection. Do I know where I'm going? Are there any better routes? What obstacles may I face on my way? Do I actually want to go where I'm headed? These are all questions I've been faced with the last few days. Being at my own red light has allowed me to see that although people may be speeding pass me that I ultimately don't know where they are going. In my head I'm thinking when will it be my turn to go but the universe is saying be patient and wait on it. These people may be headed no where fast, receiving their direction from the wrong source or driving with no destination in sight.
I've said it before but I question God a lot. I question how things play out in my life especially when I can't envision the outcome. After further thought, I think we find ourselves at these broken intersections when we aren't fully trusting what God has to say. We decide to follow His route but on our own terms. We decide to make pit stops and take detours although He has instructed us to press forward. We decide to stay on this route even if we KNOW He is trying to redirect us another way. After driving away from an actual red light , I knew exactly what God had been trying to tell me. I had finally reached a dead end on the path I had been traveling. In order to get where He intended me to be, I would have to make a decision to stray from the unfamiliar. In order to get to the next level, I'd have to be willing to possibly go alone and without the support of others. I have to be willing to let go of what I thought was my desired destination for what is promised to me.
Go after what is owed to you. Don't be afraid to switch gears, lanes, or even your destination because you never know what may be waiting once your trip ends.