If you've been following me lately then you're aware that I recently accepted a new position. For a lack of better words, it has been extremely underwhelming. I feel like I took a step in the right direction only to end up in an unfamiliar place and possibly two steps behind. Today at work, the universe spoke to me and it came in the form of a blind woman and her son.
I was tasked with assisting her in the application process and ensuring that she was prepared for the next step. As we started the application, she reminded me that she was legally blind and would have to rely on me to ensure all information was correct. I worked diligently and then got nervous when it was time for her to add her signature. She simply pulled out a card and told me to direct her to where she would be signing . I placed a card on the paper, she guided herself to the edge, and signed her name effortlessly . Ultimately, she had no clue what she was signing but trusted that I wouldn't lead her astray.
So many times in our life, we want the final picture to ensure we are taking the right steps. We want the complete map laid in front of us and detailed notes of every trap, accident, and detour to ensure this is indeed the best route. So many times in my life, I've wanted God to tell me that I was making the right choice as opposed to just following Him-blindly.
In my 26 years, I've made many a wrong move. This has usually been me neglecting what I knew was right but doing it anyway. This was usually something that was against my better judgement but I thought wouldn't have much consequence. I've spent a good portion of my life following different paths and people that were clearly destructive. Even though the obvious signs were there, I continued on.
When I left my job last month, I knew my main goal was to move on to something new. I neglected the fact that new doesn't always mean better. I left knowing that I wanted more but not 100 percent sure that this new job would provide this for me. I left assuming that just as He always has, God would fix the mess if one was to be made. I ignored His direction and decided to follow my own rules which pushed me into a dead end.
I had been blind to Him instead of blindly following Him. Hear me out because there is a big difference between the two.
Being blind to God is deciding to ignore His signs that tell you to wait or even the signs that tell you to abort the mission as a whole. It's dating the wrong person knowing they are not the one, staying at a job you're no longer passionate for, and continuing behavior that doesn't improve upon who you are. Blindly following God is trusting Him to do something where it seems as if it is unable to be fixed. It looks like applying for the job you're not qualified for, trusting Him that your home can be repaired, and all the things man told you weren't possible.
Having blind faith is not seeing the contract that He has written for your life but signing your name anyway. The blind woman from today knew what she wanted and that was for her application to be processed. She did her part which was to show up and bring the necessary items. You know what you want out of your life. Do your part and trust God to do the rest. I'm not sure what my life holds but I'm trusting Him that my contract is already signed, sealed, and delivered.