Are You Ready For Your Blessings?
When I turned 16, one of my first action steps was to get my license so I could cruise around town. The DMV didn't just hand over that piece of plastic; they ensured I was prepared. I had been in a waiting period with a permit which required me to drive with someone more experienced, take a written test, and get on the road to demonstrate what I had learned. Then and only then was I granted a license and even now, I'm required to renew it every now and then. The renewal is to ensure I’m staying current and my skills are just as fresh if not better than when I originally started driving years ago...are you ready for your miracles?
Just like the DMV, God knows if He gives us our own blessings before we are ready that it can be dangerous for ourselves and others. The mishandling of our blessings in the present can restrict those we receive in the future. God knows this but do you? It isn't that He has forgotten about you but it's the fact that He knows you. He knows that you're not prepared, He knows you have an enemy ready to take everything, He knows you're still in your learning stage, and He knows that essentially you're not ready. Luckily for us, He waits until everything is just right.
Let me tell you about my most recent blessing and miracle. I found out last year that there was a good chance I would have to go to court to tie up loose ends from my accident. This would mean bringing up things I had done my best to put behind me. This would mean probably seeing pictures I had never seen and hearing things I had never heard. It elicited a grief that I was finally putting to bed and threatened to raise hell within my personal world. Needless to say, I had spent the past 6 or so years praying this wouldn't be the conclusion but it seemed God saw otherwise.
I prepared to be out of work for nearly a month for proceedings, talked with my therapist about the impending decline on my progress, tried to cancel trips to no avail, cried, and prayed like no other. Would you believe if I said God didn't think I was ready for my blessing for 6 or so years? Within a blink of an eye, He changed everything and instead of traveling home for court, I traveled to Europe and Africa on the ticket I had tried to cancel too many times to count.
Are you ready for your miracle?
I wasn't in 2010 or any year in between there but in 2017, I was. I stopped putting the burden of my blame on God and started looking at myself. I started opening myself up to the idea that I had work to do and if God was going to do His part then I would have to play my role. Just like I had waited years for my license to drive, I had to wait for my license to be blessed. It was only earned through sacrifice on my part and realizing what role I was playing in the direction of my life.
I attended the Chance the Rapper show on Sunday and one song in particular struck me so much so that I thought I would cry. Are you ready for your blessings? Are you ready for your miracles? This was repeated over and over again and with a crowd so large, it was hard not to begin to internalize the 12 words composing these two sentences.
During most times of frustration or even waiting, I begin to feel like maybe what I want isn't for me. Maybe that blessing which supposedly has my name on it was mislabeled because it's not coming on my time or how I see fit. I don't realize that this period no matter how daunting is building me up and is God's way of prepping me.
God has been good to me throughout my life. I've been blessed so many times over but still find a way to question what He is doing. I find myself between a rock and a hard place and wonder when He is going to shift that rock out of my way. What I've failed to realize time and time again is that I'm often the rock. I'm usually in my way preventing God from making His next move, His best move.