& Still I rise...
Do you ever have those moments where you have to just sit back and breathe? Yesterday I was minding my business crossing the street as planned when I suddenly found myself laid out on the road. I literally was face down in the road with complete strangers offering assistance to help me back on my feet. My knees are scraped bare, my phone is scratched, my water bottle is rolling around freely, and let’s not even talk about my pride. I was embarrassed beyond belief because I had taken a fairly large tumble. So many people probably watched from their cars and offices with a bit of wonder as to if I was okay but were probably humored by this mishap.
I wanted to lay there and sink into the ground but I had no other option but to rise up. The same people who had witnessed me take this fall also saw the grace utilized when I dusted myself off and went about my way.
Have you ever found yourself tripped up by life and on the ground? I have. Literally and hypothetically. I can laugh about it now but in the moment, nothing was the least bit funny. I felt vulnerable, uncoordinated, and downright simple. Yesterday served as a reminder that no matter how balanced I am…life happens. We sometimes find ourselves following the rules to a tee only to stumble over that invisible hurdle that leaves us face down in despair.
It’s times like this where God chooses to test us.
Do you use your time on the ground to announce defeat or do you count your L and try again? Like yesterday and so many other times before, the ground almost won. I almost chose to lay there and count every reason why I didn’t deserve to get up. Sometimes staying down isn’t an option because by doing so, you put yourself at risk. Yesterday, my risk was oncoming traffic on Connecticut Ave. that wasn’t going to provide me with time to sulk. Sometimes the risk comes in the form of people and opportunities that only show their faces in the darkness of your life.
We sometimes use our dark times as an excuse to curse God and all He has done for us. If You were really there for me then how could I lose my job? If You were really there for me then how could I lose my marriage? If You were really there for me then why am I struggling? It’s during these times that we should rely on our faith and know that everything will be okay. Our stumbles are often protecting us and ensuring we don’t experience a misstep down the line.
More importantly, is it the fall that truly matters? If I had to be honest, the fact that I fell to the ground is a small detail in the story. The most important fact is that I got up and continued on. I was hurt physically and my pride took a large hit but I didn’t stay there. God wants us to live our lives out this way. He knows that no matter how (im)perfect we are that life is going to happen. We are going to slip up even when we are living completely by the books. What He cares about most is our ability to bounce back.